wow that really really really really sucks bad!!! im so angry now! i jus wrote a really long enrty nd i was typin nd it ALL disapeared!!! AAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!! omg that makes me sooo mad! ok well ill try to remember wut i typed nd try to retype some of it!!! ne way well i think i kinda almost like this one guy! hes really cute nd really nice nd hes a christian!! which is like sooo awesome! nd he wants the same things i want! omg its like awesome, but i dunno if he likes me i mean iv seen him b-4 nd i dont think hes seen me tho! ne way but i feel like im never gonna find someone that will hold me, or comfort me, or love me! im never gonna get married, or fine someone to grow old with nd die with! omg im gonna b alone forever! this really sucks! iv been rejected to many times nd i dont even know y! i have ppls who like me but its like not wut im lookin for! like i want a guy whos gonna respect my desicion that i want to save myself for marrage nd the right one! someone who will love me for who i am! someone whos gonna b there for me whenever i need him, nd he'll take care of me, nd stand up for me! nd think im the most beautiful person inside and out! i almost feel like its imposible to find that tho! o well please please please jus pray for me! nd pray for my family! my brother isnt doin good! he has to go c a psyciatrist i think every week! nd hes like beatin himslef up over my parents devorce! well i am too but they wernt happy! nd i understand hes like 19 nd hes havin more trouble with this then ne one! more trouble then my dad! thats sad! im jus glad my momma is happy now! hes always at home jus sittin there! its sad! ne way and Josh jacobs im really worried about him! he came nd stayed with us ofr one night nd then his mom came nd got him then he left her nd went to darrens! i dunno wut to do! i love him soo much like hes like my brother nd i cant help him! he wont let me! ne way ppls please pray for me! o and this 9th grader from carlalbert who goes to my church thinks that im gonna make out with him on our youth groups six flags trip! lol funy huh? lol hes a cutie but ill only get to c him at church nd id rather have a bf that goes to my school! gah delcity is a big school im sure i can find someone who will like me the ways i want him too! nd treat me right gah nd b truthful! gah i hate ppl who lie! nd smoke nd do drugs! its so gay! only cus i dealt with it my whole life with my dad! nd i jus cant take it ne more! ne way please leave me some encouraging comments of love! *Muah*    God bless!  xoxox